I Am Stupid

Well... at least yesterday. I made a friggin' stupid phone call and it did nothing but make me feel crappy and pathetic. I thought I was doing pretty well the last few weeks but alas, that's all it takes huh? ONE call to make you spiral down again. I want to get better. I really do. I'm probably just being stubborn. What made me make that call? Was it Just Like Heaven??? UGH! Eww! I told j.q. that I can be smart in alot of other things but I'm just stupid in THAT way. Will it ever end????

And my mom blew her top off just now. I feel even crappier. She can be SUCH a pain sometimes over the silliest things.

I'm feeling the need to take retail therapy again!