January 29, 2006

The Weekend That Was

I sometimes share my happy/sad/whatever-whatever thoughts with J at work. He's like a grandpa. Well, he IS one since he's already past 70. I was telling him how sometimes I felt like I have to pay for stuff I experience in one way or the other. You know how you're so crazy-happy one day and the next you're in tears? How you feel hopeful one day and the next day you just want to cut people? Or when you have fun today, then some bullsh*t happens afterwards? Get the picture?! Sometimes I wonder if I really deserve the 'after party'. It's been happening alot lately you see. So lolo's been basically listening and giving me his opinions. Mostly Buddhist in nature. He's been a practicing Buddhist for the past 50 years. He's making alot of sense so... it got me thinking about this -ism anew. I've always wanted to dip my pen in Buddhism. I've read a bunch of books on it the past couple of years but can't seem to grasp it in a way that caters to my needs. I have a hard time expressing/sharing my realizations/thoughts. JH brings it out of me!!! I must have gotten ahead of myself then because I jumped right into the hard core, deep books at first which well... were confusing. I think I want to start over again. Some of the teachings I've read I've found myself nodding to. I feel as if they're in me by nature already. Sort of. Gramps says I should give it more thought because it might be the gentle nudge in the right direction . Maybe. Maybe.

Finally caught King Kong Friday night with JM after dinner at IHOP. Naomi Watts was gorgeous. King Kong was... well... an ape. The movie dragged on forever at the start but finally picked up. Seeing all those dinosaurs rumble and tumble was something. My mind was a constant rewind of Meat.Flesh.Meat.Flesh.Meat.Flesh. The part where Kong just broke Barney's jaw and still continued to open / close it long after it fell to the ground really cracked me and JM up. Parang "HELLO....Buhay ka pa ba?!?" All those giant insects made my skin crawl too. Eep! I kept nudging JM. Haha! I did enjoy the movie. It has hidden lessons I think. Sabi nga "Beauty killed the beast.." diba? I guess no matter how 'Kong-like' people can be, something, someone can still tame / quiet down / pacify THAT down. Kung baga may katapat ka din. Hmm... Ah basta it made sense to me.

My good friend back in the p.i., DT, has friends here in Jersey. He made the connections and we met up last night. Had coffee at Edgewater and went to a lounge in Hoboken. There were a few glitches (my bad!) which I will not divulge here but I did have a blast drinking and dancing until dawn. Just experiencing the western party culture. I encourage letting it all go every now and then. Just let it all go...

Kiong Hee!!! It's the end of our rooster year. Here we go with the year of the dog... Kiong Hee!!!

Today I am thankful for:
- being able to wake up in time for mass. whew!
- my black raspberry, chai tea and coconut choxie truffles. Mmm...

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