January 04, 2006
ARGH
I think for the first time in my entire existence, I actually want people to hurt. To feel my pain. I am still hurt. I am effing mad. I want to hit something. I want to cut something. I want to tear something to pieces. You get a very vague explanation and you make yourself understand. You were not given a choice or a chance. You were made to understand. Later on, the explanation doesn't justify what's happening. Yeah. It sure as hell doesn't! I want to say something/everything. Explain me for once. But I know now is not the right time. I don't know if there ever will be a right time. It's probably not even right to do at all. F*ck! F*ck! F*ck! Okay, I think I'm done venting for now.
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I know what you mean: you were just given the only way out -- to accept and understand and you know there is nothing you can do but to take it as it is and try to move forward. Kahit di mo pinili. Wala na. No choice. Mahirap intindihin pero lahat may layunin kung bakit nagkaganyan. In time, things will reveal themselves to you and probably by that time you'd understand why. For now, just hope, pray and live life to the fullest. :) As Val said, hang on --to wherever life is taking you. It changed course but it doesn't mean it is for the bad.
ReplyDeleteI think I need to give you some happy pills.
ReplyDeletejayme: it's crappy isn't it? unfair too. oh well.. one day at a time. one day at time. and yes, it can be a kind of luck too!
ReplyDeletejair: HAPPY PILLS?!? gimme, gimme
For being so angry you won a prize!! from me!!
ReplyDeleteNope these aren't your Happy Pills.
You can Punch me, Slap Me, And Kick me ( OOpps no hitting Below the Belt, I need that for my future. whahahahhahaha joke!)
offer expires 2 hours after I post this message, so you can quickly book a flight to Manila to do that, since its VIRTUALLY Impossible,
( I'm saved hahahahhahaha just kidding!! )
" I want to hit something. I want to cut something. I want to tear something to pieces."
for consolation prize!!!
I'll send to you my picture,
you can print it, then post it on your wall,Punch it 100X as long as you're fist can't take it anymore then grab a shotgun and BANG! or you can grab a knife and shred it to pieces
I know Someone would like to do that right now. maaayybee I shouldn't do that. I just love my face. even if I can't face it.
Just kidding again!!
Ok! Ok! Kidding aside,
I know what you feel right now
Yeah sometimes we don't know why we are born here on earth, but I guess everything has a purpose and we only have to understand why we made that choice. I guess we'll find those ways to understand. Why the choice is being made. Don't Worry you will find that. in due time.
I guess we are a victim of causuality ( Cause and Effect ) for example, If you punch me in the face Right Now.
"the question"
why I shouldn't? and why Should I? is gone. since the emotion just burst, it will have an effect. there is a "cause" for this emotional outburst, so suddenly it will have an "effect".
( "The Cause" would be: Here's an annoying guy likes to piss me off!! )
(Please don't punch me, I'm begging you hahhaha! )
Just like boiling a water, can we just say that??
" The Flames will Freeze the Water." ( except if you are a Magician hahahahaha.)
I guess that's an example of what we Humans called LIFE.
So don't worry. You're not the only one in this world.
Take Your Time, Don't Worry Even if those hands are loosing grip. Faith will be restored,
Just B-E-L-I-E-V-E and Hope.
So When The World, Gets in my Way.
I always Say
" HAVE A NICE DAY ;P "
with a smirky smile.
Oops, That's "Causality", I guess I flunk my spelling class ( ugh. Memory problem.) ahhahaha!
ReplyDeleteuhm? sino ka?? ;)
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