I've Gone Suicidal

Before we get into that. I just got pissed because THIS post was supposed to be up already but when I hit publish. It conked on me. ARGH! Now I'm re-typing what I can at least remember. Okay, on with the show...

Hmm... those are BIG words coming from teeny me. There are just instances when I'm feeling really low that I start with these hallucinations. I would imagine that if I just crash my car (sorry my mini!) hard, or sleep for l-o-n-g periods of time, or take enough painkillers, or drown or get buried in women's denim that the sadness will go away. What??? moi, ako, wo??? think of these thoughts??? It's just not me. People who know me well would probably laugh. I just don't want the occasional bouts of sadness to pester me anymore. Shake your head woman!!! Shake it off!!! Okay, I should just shop. SHOP, shop, SHOP. It does help! I'm glad I'm female. If I were male, I probably would have ended this drama already.

That Vuitton handbag is hounding me. I saw another girl in the store with it today. Come on!!! I swear if I see that exact bag one more time in the store, it'll be THE sign that I should get my own before the year ends. For now, I should focus on boots. Boots! Boots! Boots!

I'll be working nothing but full shifts next week. Ugh! I should really devote at least one hour per day developing that essay. I've only decided on the title and sometimes that gets scratched after you're done writing. My ideas are scattered like clothes in the store on a busy Saturday. Last Saturday was really bad, a clothing bomb exploded! No kidding! Anway, I should organize! I really want that essay out of the way.

And oh, it's really silly but I couldn't find the mini in the lot on my way home. WTF!?! I remember where I parked it but since it's sooo small and easily gets sandwiched by these giant SUVS I doubt my memory if I don't have a visual. I was playing trip to Jerusalem for like five minutes searching. When I found it, it was like less than 10 cars to the left of where I was being a fool. This mini likes to play Hide and Seek.

I can bet you a $100 that this post won't conk this time. CTRL-A, CTRL-C so that I can CTRL-V for insurance.